Tuesday

I'm not one of "them"...

I’ve been looking through some popular blogs lately to muster up some inspiration for my dwindling blog; mainly local girls who have become successful through the niche of fashion and makeup blogging. I have notices these girls are very witty, using metaphors, imagery and onomatopoeia to create a discerning vision to both intrigue and allure readers into following and sharing their ever growing oeuvre.

Well, I don’t do that. I am in my final year of studying English, so of course I could string together a few words to make myself appear apt and astute, but why? Who will that relate to? I’m a real person. I may not be the same as everyone else, and I may not be very interesting, but I’m real. I have no illusions of myself, I have no amazing contacts to set me aside, I’m not the cool girl who dresses indie, smokes cigarettes and drinks wine while cleverly enticing the elite crowd surrounding her nightly. I am but a variation of you. Right now I am sitting on my couch in my jammies with my hair tied in a messy bun thinking if I get more creative with my language people might like my blog more. I’m flat broke, insecure and the furthest thing from conventionally pretty you will find.

But who says it has to be a certain way? Maybe someday I will be able to string a few sentences together and make the perfect blog post. Maybe I will become more cut-throat and demand what I want from people and give no favours if I receive nothing in return.

For right now though, I will remain as I always have. I'm not a clone; I'm weird, random, quirky and slightly boring with many spelling mistakes due to my over-reliance on spell-check (which doesn’t always get the job done to perfection). I won’t overthink my blog to self-indulge in narcissistic success, or try to fit in with the cool blogging crowd that remains just out of my reach. This is my blog, an expression of me in all my randomnicity. I have no niche, no schedule, no weekly theme to draw my readers in. However, I am happy to say that some few people do still read my blog. Some commenting, some just leaving their footprint on my stats, meaning so much to me that someone bothered to pay attention to what little old unimaginative me has written next.

I’m not the perfect blogger and will probably never gain recognition for my "hard-core" blogging, but era sure, what can ya do?

2 comments:

  1. Just want you know that I started following your blog yesterday and I don't why you don't have more followers? You are really good with words, you are really good with makeup and you ARE pretty! You don't need to be good with metaphors and all that for people to read your blog anyway! I am most certaintly not myself! You are good at being you! I prefer people who are real and honest like you. Makes me feel like I am not alone with all the stress that life brings. Anyway, you keep doing your thing, because you are touching at least one person :)

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  2. Aw thank you so much, you have really made my day with this comment, only saw it just now! I haven't posted in ages mostly because of exams, but partially because I thought no one was listening! I promise to get back on track when exams are over =)

    xox

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